Mi.Siao.celcius

no. 21

2009-08-25T23:55:00.001-07:00

不逃避，却又不敢面对。

人老了，顾虑也多了。
真的就越来越没有重新选择的勇气。

有种明知结局是怎样却无能为力改变一切的挫败和失落。。
所以，
快不快乐值不值得应不应该可不可以都不再重要。

既回不了过去，
也握不住现在。

我倒底在干什么？

DMC gonna FUCK you, pudu.

2009-07-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

Can someone please slaps me hardly if i ever fucking step into the god damn puduraya AGAIN, no matter there's no more flight nor dont want to mafaned my dad for picking me up at second link~!!
How could i once again forgotten my words that FOREVER NEVER EVER go puduraya!!

FUCK!

..and i fucking missing someone, Rabbitt, do u get me???????

onlinebooking ticket so the mafan..

2009-07-19T11:18:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is gonna be hard to me for leaving somebody..
i cant call it a day without chit-chat with her with a blurry mind before sleep( and totally forgotten what we did said on the next day, it usually mesh into our dream.. eileh~ )
=(

８８脑残

2009-07-11T05:50:00.000-07:00

不得不承认现实和梦想是平行线，虽然叻我压根不懂我的梦想是什么。。

想重新开始但我已经很老了对不？

学历比较高钱赚比较多比较屌是不是？
啊我承认是很屌啦，怎样啦！

怪自己放弃上学跑去学什么狗屁design，一堆梦想青年。

chew！

2009-06-20T01:26:00.000-07:00

so called my 21st bday

2009-06-19T06:17:00.000-07:00

I thought today will be my 落魄-est birthday in my life..

I didn't manage to get the flight on today and so I back KL by bus that taking time approx. 5 hours+ due to the bloody traffic jam in KL..kanasai..
Couldn't nap in the bus though I've been through 2 sleepless nights..

Headed to WC's place, she said she'd prepared some surprises for me.
hee..=)
(these pics looked pale bt if not they will be very yellowish, no worries i'm not taking my last photo lah..choi~!)

I saw this once i stepped into her room..HA! our pets in pet society.
She claimed that she made these over night, simply simple but nice.
How nice, I knew she was a super busy girl.

I think this cake was totally nothing to do with my birthday, it just a stage for WC to express her cuteness and she did made a poem with the cake : 愿嫦娥与你同在！ ( wishing the Chang-E be with u always)..

Thanks for everything..=)

..and i wish that everyone can be happy, no harms no hurts, peace.

我腦很空嗌。。

2009-06-05T14:18:00.000-07:00

人家總想回到過去，那裡有他們美麗的記憶。
我回頭望，
過去的二十年，十年，一年。
盡是不堪回首的過往，盡是瘡痍滿目，異常惆悵。
找不到屬於我的美好片段，所謂的HAPPY ENDING。
向前看吧！！怎麼？一片迷惘。。

妳愛我，我再一次相信妳，直到妳再一次不愛我。
只是有時想起妳當時的樣子，信任剎時動搖一下。。
別擔心，說多幾次我愛你，我們又會開開心心的了，對不？

零零落落的想法整理成文字。。
肚子好餓嗌。。賤肚子，這種時候不可以餓的喂～

我想像國偉寶寶醬一個人去西藏，去上海，去陝西，去泰國，去緬甸，去很多很多地方！！無奈我沒勇氣一個人在酒店睡。。怕鬼哎哎哎～

saya dah balik~

2009-04-29T09:29:00.000-07:00

yeaa, saya dah balik ke JB laaa~~!!!
kanasai aeroline biasanya takes 4 hours to JB, but this times..I think 6 hours!?
damn tired..

I dint know that they serve Chicken Rice Shop's 'Bento' at night 'cause usually i was taking the morning one and they served Subway's sandwich..there ain's any piece of chicken meat in the Bento thou..just sambal fish..

will update soon.. really tired sial...

Apart

2009-04-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

Since when we be with each other every single second like we thought we will never apart..

Now or soon, everyone is leaving..
Your parents, your best friends, your loves one and your hates one.
They are all leaving, gone !
or
you are the one who leaving..
or
you are the one who chase them out..

So now you are alone.
You can enjoy the freedom in the empty room in the night, with nobody, as u wishing it for so long.
You can enjoy the joyful moments that spend with someone passing by, as u wanted it for years ago.
You can laugh out loud at the screen when you had funny conversation with someone you never met, as you wanted to meet up someday.
You can do whatever you like, with nobody nagging on you.

No matter how suffer in this moment, I'm still with you, I'll be there whenever wherever you need me, until the day you made your independent.

..and i will leave, as your wish in your deepest mind that you don't even find it, too.

2009-04-07T19:35:00.000-07:00

Went to class on 9 in the morning..supposed to be an usual day but my tutor informed me that my name kena highlight due to the late payment for the security fee or whatever feeS..damn..Gotta go to SRA that so far far away from my class to settle it ..ish ish..real damn!!
Since i had walked out from class, I don't think i will going back again..XD
Met up with wen chien at Station One and then headed to The Curve.

Having our brunch at Border's Starbucks..
Ciggies come gossip session and also doing our sketch..

During the way back to home we sudden so wants to explore Batu Cave, so...

We're there..=D
We're so semangat on that time that wanted to get up to the top..
But we gave up on our first step on the stairs..=.=
Know what, WenChien's Mac and sketchbooks were in her bag, total weight 3~4 KG..
and I was wearing 5-inch heels..
err..haha..Next time then..

feeding the birds..

..and walking around..
The Indian Kuih were sooo extremely very the SWEET even we just smell it!!
The color mixture were so nice thou..

bought some Indian Kuih and flower necklace then off to home..

as usual we took silly pics..

I really appreciate today that we had so much fun while skipping class like last..
=)

她

2009-04-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

她是个大孩子，爱买玩具爱吵爱闹。
她很怕鬼，尤其是辫子姑娘。
她什么生物都不怕但她怕壁虎。
她想安安静静地悠闲地生活，但她也有梦想。
她想得到别人的认同。。
她想人生该有一番成就。。
她想和朋友一起用力玩用力笑。。
她不开心她有压力她累了。。
她总是抽着烟。。
她在右手臂刺了她的心情。。
她在朋友面前是我没见过的笑容。。

我总是摆臭脸，让她很着急。。
她总是先道歉，而我总是拉不下脸。。
她总是很激动的抱着我不想分手。。
她总是很勇敢一个人跑来我JB家。。
她总是很贴心，过马路会要我走里面。。
她总是很可爱，做很多事逗我笑。。
她总是很用心，做很多我爱吃的菜。。
她总是爱幻想我们以后的家。。
她总是很在意我的想法，我的心情。。
她总是收起自己的悲哀，微笑对着我。。
她总是以我为优先。。
她总是去到哪里都带着我。。
她总是说她是跟屎食爱跟着我。。
她总是为我改变，我总是不满足。。
我总是很粗心，没发现她的不开心。。

我不再是她的快乐，
可以说其实一直是她的负担。。
我走了，有谁可以帮我照顾她吗。。
我想她会过得很好吧。。

她说从新开始让感情慢慢萌芽。。
不可能了，我感觉到。
１年９个月，快乐过幸福过笑过疯过玩过傻过共患难过落魄过梦过天真过吵过抱过复合过。。
她对我的用心，够了。
我知道发生什么事了，不用说太白。
分手后还对我好让我有个Happy Ending。
我不怨，真的。
所以别再说对不起了，是我一直太任性，是我不配。
回到各自的生活，带着这些日子的回忆和天真烂漫的梦想。。

上帝吖。。
这是我第一次这么想要一个人幸福。。
请祢吃爱西基林牟啦。。

Me Myself & I

2009-04-05T17:24:00.000-07:00

关于我，
　总是嚷着没人了解自己，
　我想我应该也不太了解我自己。
　一句话，犯贱呗。

关于美食，
　最高尚到最杂牌的我都爱，视乎和谁一起吃罢了。
　有时候肚子饿了，maggie加蛋就够我满足很久。
　不加蛋太寒酸，在学校试了几次受不了。
　算是我的小小原则吗？

关于金钱，
　有些人满身名牌样样讲究，
　有些人百万千万身家却还是愿意陪我去大减价拣便宜。
　我买不起LV但我不缺钱，大幸！

关于自信，
　有人用金钱包装表现自己，
　有人和他们认为可满足他们虚荣心的人混在一起，
　有人满口八卦希望和别人能有更多的话题，
　我说的是我。
　但我想无论怎样，知识是可以建立信心的。
　看多点nat geo，去旅行呗！
　不然说话大大声却说错了是很糗的。

关于家庭，
　尚算健全。
　疼爱我的双亲，奇怪的兄弟。
　虽然争吵不断像永无宁日，但有时一起看电视我已经感受到幸福。
　纵使父母之间没有爱，我还是选择了相信表面的平静。

关于友情，
　即使一年没联络，但再见面时还是很熟络。
　我喜欢这种朋友。
　你们真好。

关于爱情，
　曾经以为自己是世界上最长情的人，其实我连初恋情人的样子都快忘了。。
　也曾经天真的以为只要两个人在一起，在深山种菜也愿意。最后终究被现实打败。是我太自以为忽略了她的感受。
　到现在我还是好舍不得。。

关于性向，
　有人以为我受了情伤所以变死lesbian，
　有人说我赚到，因为我是bi。
　但可否知道，真爱难寻也！
　而我现在执行着asexual reproduction，看到我的孩子别奇怪。

关于生活，
　越堕落就越快乐，是我一直信奉的。
　以悲伤为美，总爱把自己设定成世纪大悲剧的主角。
　自以为悲伤的表情会让自己更美丽动人。
　殊不知现实生活中我承受不起一点心痛。

有人以为自己很可怜，
有人以为自己很有钱，
有人以为自己很厉害，
有人在意别人的眼光，
有人心里很自卑，
有人为未来努力，

我在心里冷笑。
生不带来死不带去，让所有事情自生自灭好不好？
烦恼是何苦。
爱你想爱的人，恨你想恨的人，笑你想笑的事，看你想看的戏，唱你想唱的歌，去你想去的景，做你想做的梦，吃你想吃的屎，喝你想喝的尿。

我生活一塌糊涂一生没啥成就，
但我只想平凡的偷生。

因为我很窝囊我没有去死的勇气。

与此同时有人在不屑我。

Piggy---the prayer

2009-04-03T19:52:00.000-07:00

May God bless Bunny
not to be harm,
not to be disappointed,
not to be sad..
May You bless her happy ever after..

...and i will treat You aisikilimu...

Happy Ending

2009-03-26T19:27:00.000-07:00

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life.
Can't get no love without sacrifice.
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well.
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind.
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around.
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep.
I can think that we just carried on.

This is the hardest story that I've ever told.
No hope, or love, or glory.
Happy endings gone forever more.
I feel as if I'm wasted.
And I'm wastin' every day.

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.

Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

告诉我

2009-03-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

看沉默的电话它什么都不说
看电视的画面它无声的闪动
看街上的行人跟我擦肩而过
整个世界太冷漠我没有力气再往前走

看你紧闭的嘴唇它什么都不说
看你飘忽的眼神它无情的闪躲
看你和我的回忆跟我擦肩而过
你的改变太冷漠我没有勇气大声地说

告诉我你不是真的离开我
你也不愿这样的夜里把难过留给我
告诉我你不是真的离开我
告诉我﹒﹒﹒

作词：陈绮贞作曲：陈绮贞编曲：林炜哲/陈绮贞

无.所谓

2009-03-20T12:33:00.000-07:00

你说我们两个人在一起很快乐，

我想因为你还没发现你和其他人一起更快乐。
我想你没有真正的爱过我，不然怎么昨天才说的话全走了调。
我想你和他们一样，不然怎么都爱在分手后说对不起。
我想你只是不习惯，不然怎么又说不分了。
我想你只是突然忘了我对你有多差。

所谓道歉，所谓承诺，所谓改变，所谓等待，
我承受不起，
更担当不起所谓升华为友情的爱情。

我想你应该快去过你所谓快乐成功的人生，找你所谓的好朋友，
这样你可以马上忘记我的存在，不再有所谓的伤心不舍。

2009-03-20T09:18:00.000-07:00

We tried so hard but yet ended up like this..

I will give your life back and leave silently..

valentine's day nothing to do with us

2009-02-15T19:58:00.000-08:00

偶爾放任自己想念那些時光那些人。
他們說得話和當時的模樣還有一些現在得不到的快樂和悲傷。
才了解這段時間自己有了多少的成長和不同。
也明白了,他們雖然並非離你遠去,而不過是那些時光被置入腦海中被掌管記憶的那部份。

儘管現在如同陌生人,至少我還記得。

我們都會記得。
我一直都祝福著。

就算想起的次數不多。
也無從做些感謝回報那些人或多說甚麼。
但你們都存在過雖然我們都不再停留卻是永遠的朋友。

現實的層面或許該說很久的以後大夥見了面可能沒話說,
所以靜靜的看著也是一種關心的方式吧。

我們都知道的。

BY. ZAI

shriek~~~~

2009-01-30T12:03:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I being so agressive this few days..
I was so fucking wants to kill some fucking peoples.

-tiny minded
-my brainless lecture
-my tutor
-my ex
-my college's staff
-survivor of the end of the world
-lala who never have the realization bout they are LALA

yeah this is such an offensing....no, not my post, I mean them.

Stupid idiot fucker, 他妈的,干!!

Ang Pau come first~

2009-01-26T01:59:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2009!!

Wish my loves one love me too..=p

Guess what I dreamed in this morning?
I dreamed I was having Bahasa Malaysia test in EC!!..Hwe Cheng scored the highest mark like 95% something and i was just get 5%..??
Funny sial..

Okay, ponteng no more after CNY!!

..

2009-01-01T11:14:00.000-08:00

It's getting light in my place..
I'm sad because you're not around..
Starring at the screen with the tears filled eyes..
I though we could have worked things out and we tried so hard, yet ends up with nothing but memories that lingered for while in the air..

I'd fcuk up everything, sorry..

You're always my baby bunny love..
I miss the part that never came back to us..

I miss you..

no glue, it's UHU~!!

2008-11-03T03:15:00.000-08:00

since it has been awhile this blog was dying, tried to squeeze a little time to update lah..
only got 4 minutes to post it!!
here comes the one and only pic that i has taken this few weeks, Tristan & WenChien, poser, in FULLHOUSE which located at NZX which located somewhere else in PJ area.
I don't really know where is the place, quite ulu one..
they serve zap 8 lang food, western/chinese/korean etc..
but the ambiance there was quite nice.

.......

.......
.......

yeah that's all, nothing much to say.

=p

ciao~

assignment dragging me....sob sob..

Ctrl + + to enlarge

2008-10-11T14:25:00.000-07:00

我试着忘记，记忆却还那么清晰。

多少次，梦里你目无表情的脸。。
多少次，被梦惊醒。。
我真的很想好好的睡一觉。

刻意压抑的情绪有时不自觉的表现在脸上，所以你总觉得我双重人格。
用食物给你一个交待，吃饱了笑一笑又撑过一天。
自称food hunter也不过想和你一起做某一样事情，这样会让我觉得我们的距离会近一些，让我把饥饿当成不开心的废借口。

我以为对你好一点，你会珍惜我。
我以为为你做多一点，你会知道我的存在。
我以为表现软弱，你会心疼我。
以为以为以为以为。。。。再一次的我以为。

不了解每一晚在我身旁熟睡的你。
也许我懂，因为太了解而假装不了解。

一直想要用忙碌来逃避，其实也没那么忙。。
想东想西就是跳过你的画面，我知道我还接受不了，目前。

你有心无力。

信任瓦解，一个眼神一个动作都让我联想很多。

没一首歌能述说我的心情，也许是孤陋寡闻。
俄文也许，听不懂的就随意翻译成我想的就好。

用力的回想我们的种种，再用力忘记我们的一切。

脑里还有很多话想说，却无法把杂乱的情绪编辑成为文字。
我想对你说的话，徒然。

越堕落越快乐，以悲伤为美，我想知道自己能沉沦到什么样的地步。

你说世界在这一刻毁灭多好。

Schizophrenia

2008-10-11T00:13:00.000-07:00

As I alway asked you:

" who's on your mind when you are kissing me?"

who am I ?

Detroit Metal City

2008-09-28T18:46:00.000-07:00

guess who?

Hint : the curled lips

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tadaa~
It's L~!!
L!!

This time he's going to hosts a live film named Detroit Metal City ( DMC ) which serialized in Manga.cool right?

Nothing much to say lah, here's the linkie~
jp ver. use Google translator.=)

RAPE RAPE RAPE RAPE RAPE

Rabbit has collected the Krauser's figure, I manage to get her another two they are Jagy & Camus..hee^^
And yeah they also released Be@rbrick which u can get form Be@rbrick sr.16, horror.
1 hidden horror, 1 in 400% ( RM 250), 1 in 1000% ( RM1499.80), 1 in limited for first 10k jp audiences ONLY..=(
or
Grab 3 of them in 1 set, included Krauser Jagy & Camus~!!

This movie I strongly recommended u guys!!
There is also a must to read their comic, 暴粗band友.
For those who don't know mandarin arrrr... I doubt whether there is any Malay version..coz it is too many *BEEP* words.

GO TO DMC~!!!!!!!!!!!

untitled

2008-09-26T22:38:00.000-07:00

It seems so easy for people to get along, and have empathy.

For her life which will be so much happier without me.

I Love You.

for her (2)

2008-09-22T19:32:00.000-07:00

Good Bye
my baby little bunny..

U're such a adorable person..

=)

for her

2008-09-21T19:05:00.000-07:00

如果我一直以为为你做的事对你来说根本不希罕，
对不起那又是我的自以为。

如果我的眼泪让你很反感，
对不起我会躲在厕所里哭。

如果你觉得还没开始的外遇是不算的，
对不起我太小心眼。

如果你觉得我很多事，
对不起我会盖上被寻找安全感。

如果你觉得我比不上别人，
对不起我这辈子还真的没什么成就。

如果我以为懵懂就能一辈子，对不起。。

你不懂我要什么，我更不懂你想什么。

现在分手，总好过一拖再拖直到你对我露出嫌恶的表情。。

你连道歉都是责备的语气。

如果你还记得我的坏，那就无限放大它。
那就不会不舍得，
那就不会还牵挂，
那就不会再想起我。。

我们不适合。

jam with smoke

2008-09-04T07:40:00.000-07:00

Blew big smoke with little hookah..;)

went Cineleisure today, thanks baby for accompany me watching wall-e..
but not as interesting as i was expected..=3

hubbly-bubllies

2008-09-02T05:06:00.000-07:00

It was a normal routine day, Baby wake me up for breakfast this morning, both of us craving for tomyam steamboat, need something spicy to wakening us, yum yum!! But our favorite steamboat spots are supplying at dinner time only..hmmp..=3
We driving around the street to hunting our first meal of the day, we spot a dessert shop named 甜品哥哥(dessert gor gor).. hahaha the name was so hilarious!! There's many choices( more than 100++), we ordered a durian pancake, a mango taufufa & peanut tangyuen.. We prefer Very Easy Remember lah..
Then we off to DPC for our main meal, Japanese cuisine.

Later we having our French language tuition, guess what we saw downstairs the tuition center??
There was a fortuitous hookah shop hidden among the shops.. It was like just a little corner in a old grocery store, the hookah shop owned by a Chinese uncle, he was selling Arabian stuff.
Our eyes sparkling like we found treasure~

We gets a mini hookah, blew big smoke with it~ woohoo~

No more talking, shisha first~!!

1st day of Sept

2008-09-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

A randomly pics before we going out, such a messy place but then giving us much of inspiration to producing our work.
-An expired tomato bread from cinnamon cafe weeks time ago..
-2 little bottle of nameless chili sauce..
-oops! There's HK porno DVD's cover on the desk, spot it!! XD

Baby's very first pic taken with UTUT(should be named Millie lah..)..Aged women wanted to act cute some more..ish*

Picked Tiffy up at her house and then headed to One U..
Having lunch at Nando's, ordered quarter chicken for each, Tiffy picked a freaky REFRESHING little potatoes salad as her sideline...like...errrr.....hmmp.....wow, so fresh!!....like just delivered from US by air an hour ago. Baby wants some cupcakes for her dessert, strongly NOT RECOMMEND the Nando's cupcake, even me can do better than them, eileh ya allaHH!!

There's so packed everywhere, today is holiday huh!?
Haix, our mood spoiled..=(
We just wander around lah..

Thanks for Tiffy for helping us to collects the Be@rbrick from the forbidden area, hee~

After sending Tiffy back Baby & I headed to WonderMilk located at PJ uptown, bought her favorite cupcakies^^(cupcakeies again..I've been eating more than 20++ cupcakes since i back to KL..) ..taste too sweet for me, I'm afraid of getting diabetes.
And...cupcakies is such a girl stuff, look at those girlie creamy decoration, only girl will like it..My girl likes it, sakai hahaha!!

Mocha Frapp for my dinner...Baby was sleeping now....Hope this can tahan till tomorrow morning lah, it's melting though..mixed some water to it lah..yucks!!

Yesterday 31st august was baby's mummy birthday~!~!
woohoo~~ merdeka baby~!!..
Baby baked a strawberry cake for her..

by the former Michelin 3-star restaurateur---------Ms. Tere!!
fuiyohh!!

eat all u can, eat lah~!

2008-08-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night baby and I went to THE CAVE located at ss2, opposite the 'wai sek gai' with so much of expectation....
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and then full of disappointments..ish~~

Our appetite gone, all gone when we read through their menu outside the restaurant.. Chinese cuisine mixed western mixed Japanese ...hmmp...

Then we off to our favorite dinner spot---cinnamon cafe, one word hotel..=)
There also provide shisha, ngek!!

That night i was sick, luvkily there was a Baby beside me..muacks~

here's the baby~
=p

screaming in silence

2008-08-14T19:03:00.000-07:00

I wonder whether tears stained everyone's face in the dark..

There's too much thoughts, questions, pain and sadness inside me.
So much deep down that I can't reach. It dragging me down in a deep darkness.
..let it go, let it out.

I love my family, love my baby, love my friends.
I appreciate everything I have.

But I just so want to be alone..
I want to let it have me for a while without worrying about anyone for seeing me cry, just a little while..
I just want to be alone so that I can stop worrying my breakdown will do to others.
I don't want to explain since it is impossible for me to do so, now.

10 + 10

2008-08-11T17:48:00.000-07:00

Everyone is going so further yet I'm still standing right at the same place and done nothing for these yrs, times flies too fast and I couldn't hold a single thing.
I'm getting older and older and older and older..

Habitually to furrow my brow everytime when I'm thinking of this shit..

People always saying that there's never too late, is it true??

what u want

2008-08-03T11:37:00.000-07:00

There's ain't any marking scheme for design..
Your mark given based on those lecture's very own UNIQUE taste.
It even worse they never gave a hint of what they wants.

Fiak u design!!

But I'm so into u........................SIGHED.

TuTuZuZu

2008-07-24T17:00:00.000-07:00

16/05/07
记得我们第一次见面吗？？两个人对彼此的印象，就是整个都不讨喜。

xx-xx/05/07
你问我要不要一起吃晚餐，开心～
怎么知道原来你其实是想和她一起，有点失望。。
而且你还帮别人问我有没有女朋友，帮她追我，连回家也是她不好意思载我而沦落到你载我。。
过后还要听你诉苦，追不到别人才追我。。&^@&$@&^%&*

03/05/07
你叫我陪你。
好吧，那你就请我吃晚餐吧。
去the curve的路上大塞车，你很尴尬一直装酷耍帅，因为是你自己说从学校过去只要15分钟罢了的。。其实我觉得塞车没什么。。
笼的传人是我们第一次单独两个人一起的晚餐。其实我不吃猪肉，所以也没办法品尝你最爱的小笼包。那时你以为信用卡不见了而慌张，还要隔壁桌的安哥告诉你它在你椅子下面。。糗！！

04/05/07
0000a.m.，其实我们很忙还有assignment要交的。。但昨晚就陪你聊你的伤心事聊到现在。。记得那时在the curve我还跟你说很怕会遇到我的ex，而你的ex也每5分钟就打给你。。
回到家我们还一直sms，赶assignement到早上咯。。
早上你来载我，下楼看到你带着topman的帽子和小妹妹玩，有一点被电到，因为看不到你的脸～=p
其实你在楼下等了1个小时，还骗我说你刚到。。

05/06/07
567，我们说好看7点的戏，怎么知道我爸打来说我妈一个人在那黑暗无光的家很可怜要我回去陪她。。浪费了两张戏票。还要你带我们母女俩去吃晚餐，难为你了。

08/06/07
yay~约你晚上去看戏你还半信半疑，怕我又放你飞机。。对不起啦。。
去sakae吃，很兴奋第一次用电脑点餐～不要问我这是什么脸。。就很累吖～前一晚才赶assignment到早上。。
shrek 3 演什么我忘了， 1和2没看所以说真的我看不太明。。只记得你说你很冷，能不能牵手取暖，基于好心我也答应了。出了戏院你说能不能继续牵，我却把你的手给甩了，你一副很可怜的脸，睬你都傻。
由于太迟了所以今晚就在你家过夜。

09/06/07
误上贼船！！亏我那么信任你。。呜呜。。就是这样我们在一起了～

12/06/07
one u 的 SOHO，不好吃。

14/06/07
早上你载我去上课后你就失踪了，原来你去试香水。过后才知道你鼻子过敏，尤其香水。而且听说你这天试闻了不少。。过后你很干脆地直接带我去选，因为你不知道我喜欢哪一个。但你还是非常hardsell你看中的你误以为是britney的香水但其实是的J.Lo的香水。。

15/06/07
去在人家上学的途中你帮我拍的。
在一起一个礼拜～
腼腆期。

18-19/06/07
yay～～生日～～
你说生日应该吃蛋糕，就从the curve一路找到uptown的starbuck，都没有在卖我爱的草莓蛋糕。。你就买了他们家新推出的红豆蛋糕，记得它被吃了一口后就一直在你房间的冰箱冻了好些月份。看你因为买不到草莓蛋糕而慌张的样子而觉得你很可爱。
快12点时你带我到naili's，听光头唱歌。谢谢你为我点的生日歌～^^还有看到光头精彩的印度舞蹈演出。

上完课你带我去shogun吃晚餐，嗯，蛮后悔的一顿。而且我们的座位竟然敢敢有蟑螂！！虽然经理很好心但早知道还是应该拍照狠狠敲他们一笔！！

28/06/07
你去找朋友，我在MNG买衣服～
那时是第一次见到你的朋友。。

09/07/07
那天晚上你突然决定带我上云顶，说要庆祝1个月纪念。。
超开心～因为我总是吵你带我去。。那可是我小孩时代非常崇敬的乐园吔！！你们这些KL人是不会了解我们这些几年才能登上山顶一次的人的感受的。。
偏偏那天身体不争气，晕车还发烧了！！记得在半山我就晕死了吧。。
也不懂过了多久我们终于到了，我的烧也退了一点点。。
0200 a.m. 啥都没了，两个穿着短裤的未成年人也干不了啥大事赢大钱，就到处逛逛。。
我说我还是很不舒服，你马上就要衝去租一间房间。。但我不想花这笔钱，而且什么都没带～
你说那回家吧，但我不想扫兴。。就这样你把外套脱了给我，抱着我聊天。。
很开心，有你在身边。

15/08/07
你这晚很反常，一直一直灌酒。。你醉了一直说你还爱她还想她，一直骂我。。我在厕所陪你吐、帮你冲凉。。快天亮了，你跑出去说要打电话给她，而我在房间里只能一直哭。。下午醒来你好像忘了发生过什么事，我也以为可以假装不知道像以前那样就好。。你一眼看出我的不对劲，我对你说了，你否认。

15/09/07
好像是要去IKEA吧。。
IKEA是你永远的痛～！！
嘿嘿=p

08/10//07
超经典的这张！！！！
那时去toy city 还是toy r us，找到一个在你身上看不到什么作用的面具。。因为它和你脸没有两样！！
头发也是～！！
连你的妈咪一开始也发觉不到这照片的你是带着头罩式的面具。。

27/11/07
你终于坦白你喜欢cancan，我什么都没说就去冲凉。。过后我说分手吧，你却不要。。我很好奇你为什么不要，都已经不爱我了。。

29/11/07
我们还是像以前一样，好像什么都没发生过。。

04/01/08
这是你为了我回来而买的第2束玫瑰～第1束在我回来前的1个月你就买了，不凋才怪。。笨兔！！
到现在我还留着它的干尸，呵呵～

那时我们去one u action city买be@rbrick。。
还很幸运地被我们买到lucky box～～
两个artist两个secret都在里面！！^^

21/01/08
第n次去cinnamon。
这是唯一我们吃不腻的buffet。
记得每一次打赌或吵架就是来这边吗？？
这半年来我们去应该不少过20次吧。。
我们暴增10公斤因为都是它～！！

12/02/08
你在one u 的 parkson砌的。^^
当时还不准我靠近你，搞神秘。。
过后还因为我没马上把它拍下来而发小小个的脾气咯。。

14/02/08
这是我趁你上课时跑去买的情侣戒。
还有记得你说过只要抽烟比较会比较精神，所以我买了一包烟。。虽然知道对你身体不好，但你最近熬夜都很辛苦，我只想让你‘暂时’清醒一点。。对不起，我应该更注意你的健康的。。一起戒烟～

18/04/07
就是喜欢你。=)

18/05/08
之前我说喜欢吃白汁意大利面，你就一直收集recipe。今天一早你就去jusco买材料，回来又不准我帮忙。。结果真的是超好吃的～！！我回JB照你的指示做但还是没精髓。。果然你大厨就是不一样～

21/05/08
还好这天有我帮你看错时间表，9.30a.m.变10.30a.m.，我们才能skip class去one u 。
才能有幸申请到one card，才能拍这张照片，才能玩拼图寻宝游戏，才能拿到一堆free gift，才能接触到dzambala，带三把啦～

26/05/08
你说这张很丑。。才怪！！像小baby啦～～

02/06/08
这是我们一直很想尝试的杯杯面，直到有天我们终于买了。。

结果是令人失望。。
得不到的始终最好。

09/06/08
一周年快乐～！！^^
幸好the orphanage时间不对，我们才看了kungfu panda～兔兔和猪猪村。。嘿嘿^^
过后又去cinnamon，当时又很刚巧有shisha promotion～
而且都没人，感觉被我们包场了。。开心～
一整天就是很幸运啦！！
真的真的很开心。。之前还一直感觉我们撑不过1年的。。
可惜我们也不懂在忙什么，居然1张照片都没拍到。。

12/06/08
车坏掉的阳光少女。。
幸好是在你家外面而不是在highway。。
不是很想还别人上班迟到咯。。
而且你为什么车坏了还那么开心？？
难道因为你可以不用上学？？
总觉得是你前一晚动的手脚咯。。
为什么battery的线会松掉。。

15/06/08
我们就要分开2、3个月了。。
之前还一直担心对方会不会变心什么的。。
该来的还是会来。=)

不应该这么少，还有很多很多，开心的不开心的。。
我想不起来是什么时候的事了。。
那时只要一吵架，就会把过去的回忆记录都删了毁了。。搞得现在连回忆都难。

好几次都想分手，觉得我们根本不适合，但不甘心就这样分了。。
有时觉得你很爱很爱我，有时又觉得你没人时才找我。。
你说你只爱我，事实上又好像不是。。
知道是我不对。。
每一次看着心力交瘁的你，真的很心疼。。
该怎么做才能让你不这么累？？
每一次吵架我总是说很多过份的话来伤害你，对不起。。

你一直当我的司机，要去哪里你都肯，大塞车你也甘愿。
肚子饿了也有你当厨师。。
虽然我是很想展示我的厨艺，但始终比不上你啦。。我也无谓献丑～

觉得你很可爱。。总是爱撒娇。。
明明就比我老比我高。。
当时惊人地发现你长得意外地高，看起来明明是150cm的感觉。。
170cm居然只有50kg不到！！而且现在还敢敢瘦到47kg！！
哼，吃肥点！！不健康啦～！！
而且我是绝对不会承认我160cm看起来比你高是因为我痴肥高大威猛的关系，是你太瘦造成的假象～！！

我爱你，宝贝兔兔。
a.k.a.小眼妹子、马屎、兔B、傻B、花纸小妹、翻版滨崎步。。

这一篇会一直更新哦～

Where the Hell is Matt?

2008-07-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

Very impressive and inspiring and touching videos.

Let's dance~
hehe

just a thought

2008-07-09T12:48:00.000-07:00

I've a thought since I was young..

People eats and drinks everyday so do they pee pee and poo poo everyday(except those who facing constipation problem, hiak hiak), yeah this is a very normal human being recycle..

What if..
we drinking while we pee..

or

What if..
we eat while we poo..

Refill the lost immediately, or we can says we gain and lost at the same time.

I did tried it few years ago but I was failed.. I just cant ingest the water, it's feeling kinda weird..
So i asked my bro to try it, and he did success~~wee~~ *clap clap*
There were great aches in his stomach, but i think that this is nothing to do with the drinking action.

Somebody else wants to try this and please tell me how it feels..=)

*i miss my Baby.. She bought a bunny for me.. hehe.. cudbunny??

bubble

2008-07-06T03:57:00.000-07:00

Why do bubbles burst?
I wish I knew..

It took me more than 1 year to simply realize it was nothing but a bubble.
So finally I did figure out but too late.
I couldnt do anything but stood there and watched it burst----right in front of me.

Just like that.

The only problem is it took with it a part of me or did it take the whole?
I really need to think about that.

And of course all those dreams, light-heartedness, the zest, the wings.
All gone.
Evaporated.
Nothing to grab, nothing to hold on to----no remains.

Wish I could say no memories too.
Those are the only things left behind and lots of them too.

Matin the c.s.

2008-07-04T13:09:00.000-07:00

The people below I'm going to talk about..

...This is the most handsome pic from him bacause he just showed parts of him in this pic.

Tried to modeling yet fail.

Yes, you did a good job!! Seem like you doing well with the girlish style. You got the potential.

He looked dully and sleepy all the time..He's still can't adjust himself to Malaysia time so far..
Just try to adapt urself to this place, eat curry, chili, nasi lemak & etc!! Mr. c.s.

I'll never forget that that time he got his maintenance like about 80k ( either USD or RM or TRY or GEM) and he brought baby and I went to.....Burger King..Suppose to be more luxurius meals alright!! I knew that our friendship ends since that time.. That's such a big dissapointed for a food hunter like me that putting so much expecting on him.

Mr. c.s. promised to throw a farewell party for me and buy something for me if i din't fail..
Talk big!! Sosososo very BIG..
But..I'm still waiting, I don't mind to receive lated presents~~hohoho~~

I know nothing much from him..We're just hi-bye a friend in TOA.. Everytime we just talking nonsence, just for killing times.=p
All i know about him is :" He's a GAY.." and he loves my mum.
..yeah.. That's all..

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Parts for my Baby..
Seems like my blog was almost about my baby..hmmp....
I'm a person who born to love..hehe^^
There ain't any adsorbing story or fairy-tale from us, but I just enjoyed our routine~
We had a hard time maintaining our relationship, we never gave up though..

friendsteric pic from her..hehe^^

She's
~ my rely on
~ my listener
~ my baby
~ my food hunting partner
~ my family
~ sleeping most of the time
~ hungry most of the time
~ noisy most of the time
~ a rabbit
~ a chef
~ cute
~ silly
~ mine

~ everything

argh~~~~i just can grab pics from their sites..hated!!
Stupid me left the adapter, stupid pc don't have bluetooth.

7.36 in the morning now..got to get into bed..
Not insomnia but too much coffee for yesterday...
morning, everyone.

ZzzzzZzzzzZZzzzz.....

untitled

2008-06-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

It's being abit weird between baby n I..

boss n her staff

2008-06-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

Went out with Jia Yaw at 10 in the morning as i promised him last week as our date was canceled that time due to there was a demonstration in somewhere else in JB..
Wanted to have some beef noodle for our brunch but the famous one was closed today..sighed!! I've been waiting for 3 years~!!! Off to 'xi dao yu yuan' nearby Perling there then.. Not bad also..=)
Then we went Tmn Molek to send his fax machine to the Canon sevice centre..
Then..SHOPPING TIME!!! Gets DKNY parfume & 71% choc from choco moco for my mum, she loves it.
Then..night he brought me to a restaurant that located beside NY Hotel that quite similiar to Naili's but it served Thai food there. Nice enviroment~ Nice food & nice tomyam soup~ Sorry for that there ain't any pics to be uploaded, imaging yourself =p
Brings my Baby & MeiMei there next time~

My Baby was sick, worry about her.. Drinks more water la B..

I'm so into Jazzamor~

Jazzamor is a German musical duo which consists of Bettina Mischke and Roland Grosch. Their music combines elements of lounge music, jazz and bossanova.

click here for more =D

Baby Love

2008-06-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

Slept at 5.30 a.m. and woke up on 9 in the morning..Great~!! Morning air was so fresh~

Browsed my phone whether there's any missed call or new messages..Hmmp..Answer is NO..sighed~~
Baby dint find me..sad..She using no mobile now, like sakai..I can just wait for her to get me first..

I used to think too much worries too much..I'm so affraid that she was burdened with this relationship..I was such a suspecter, once i cant get to her i just starts wondering what she is doing..Hmmp..Sound like I'm a pervert..Actually she is doing assignment la..

Sorry Baby i will try to put more trust in you..

I do not believe in the myth of first-sight-love untill I met you..
You're loved, Baby..

I wish I was your favorite girl as u're mine..
I wish you remember the first time we met..
I wish I can hold your hand untill the last day..
I hugged my belief in my wishes..

hey~

2008-06-20T13:01:00.000-07:00

It has been a while i never blogging here..

For some reasons i just deleted my older posts like I wanted to starts all over as I've already 20 yrs old, 1 more year to go to become an adult!!..That's so so so so so so so so so OMG!!
I let my mind keeps on wandering, felt like so confusing like what shall I do to the next step??Am I correct on my decission??And of course I'm so affraid to gettin old!!
It is time for me to become independent, not to rely on parents but let them rely on me..=)

It was just 6 days but I do miss my Baby so bad!! We used to clique together whole day since about 1 year ++ ago..This is the longest seperation period for us..I'm started to worry about how to maintain our relationship after graduated..I heard my dad told my mum that he don't wants me study in KL,when he was drunk, not only once..It made me so sad..Please wait..Wait me back with Fame..XD
And keep off alcohol, dad!!

Long-distance-love is so HATED!!!!