Wednesday, April 29, 2009

saya dah balik~

yeaa, saya dah balik ke JB laaa~~!!!
kanasai aeroline biasanya takes 4 hours to JB, but this times..I think 6 hours!?
damn tired..

I dint know that they serve Chicken Rice Shop's 'Bento' at night 'cause usually i was taking the morning one and they served Subway's sandwich..there ain's any piece of chicken meat in the Bento thou..just sambal fish..

will update soon.. really tired sial...

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Apart

Since when we be with each other every single second like we thought we will never apart..

Now or soon, everyone is leaving..
Your parents, your best friends, your loves one and your hates one.
They are all leaving, gone !
or
you are the one who leaving..
or
you are the one who chase them out..

So now you are alone.
You can enjoy the freedom in the empty room in the night, with nobody, as u wishing it for so long.
You can enjoy the joyful moments that spend with someone passing by, as u wanted it for years ago.
You can laugh out loud at the screen when you had funny conversation with someone you never met, as you wanted to meet up someday.
You can do whatever you like, with nobody nagging on you.













No matter how suffer in this moment, I'm still with you, I'll be there whenever wherever you need me, until the day you made your independent.


..and i will leave, as your wish in your deepest mind that you don't even find it, too.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Went to class on 9 in the morning..supposed to be an usual day but my tutor informed me that my name kena highlight due to the late payment for the security fee or whatever feeS..damn..Gotta go to SRA that so far far away from my class to settle it ..ish ish..real damn!!
Since i had walked out from class, I don't think i will going back again..XD
Met up with wen chien at Station One and then headed to The Curve.


Having our brunch at Border's Starbucks..
Ciggies come gossip session and also doing our sketch..



During the way back to home we sudden so wants to explore Batu Cave, so...


We're there..=D
We're so semangat on that time that wanted to get up to the top..
But we gave up on our first step on the stairs..=.=
Know what, WenChien's Mac and sketchbooks were in her bag, total weight 3~4 KG..
and I was wearing 5-inch heels..
err..haha..Next time then..


feeding the birds..






..and walking around..
The Indian Kuih were sooo extremely very the SWEET even we just smell it!!
The color mixture were so nice thou..




bought some Indian Kuih and flower necklace then off to home..




as usual we took silly pics..












I really appreciate today that we had so much fun while skipping class like last..
=)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

她是个大孩子,爱买玩具爱吵爱闹。
她很怕鬼,尤其是辫子姑娘。
她什么生物都不怕但她怕壁虎。
她想安安静静地悠闲地生活,但她也有梦想。
她想得到别人的认同。。
她想人生该有一番成就。。
她想和朋友一起用力玩用力笑。。
她不开心她有压力她累了。。
她总是抽着烟。。
她在右手臂刺了她的心情。。
她在朋友面前是我没见过的笑容。。

我总是摆臭脸,让她很着急。。
她总是先道歉,而我总是拉不下脸。。
她总是很激动的抱着我不想分手。。
她总是很勇敢一个人跑来我JB家。。
她总是很贴心,过马路会要我走里面。。
她总是很可爱,做很多事逗我笑。。
她总是很用心,做很多我爱吃的菜。。
她总是爱幻想我们以后的家。。
她总是很在意我的想法,我的心情。。
她总是收起自己的悲哀,微笑对着我。。
她总是以我为优先。。
她总是去到哪里都带着我。。
她总是说她是跟屎食爱跟着我。。
她总是为我改变,我总是不满足。。
我总是很粗心,没发现她的不开心。。


我不再是她的快乐,
可以说其实一直是她的负担。。
我走了,有谁可以帮我照顾她吗。。
我想她会过得很好吧。。

她说从新开始让感情慢慢萌芽。。
不可能了,我感觉到。
1年9个月,快乐过幸福过笑过疯过玩过傻过共患难过落魄过梦过天真过吵过抱过复合过。。
她对我的用心,够了。
我知道发生什么事了,不用说太白。
分手后还对我好让我有个Happy Ending。
我不怨,真的。
所以别再说对不起了,是我一直太任性,是我不配。
回到各自的生活,带着这些日子的回忆和天真烂漫的梦想。。

上帝吖。。
这是我第一次这么想要一个人幸福。。
请祢吃爱西基林牟啦。。

Me Myself & I

关于我,
 总是嚷着没人了解自己,
 我想我应该也不太了解我自己。
 一句话,犯贱呗。

关于美食,
 最高尚到最杂牌的我都爱,视乎和谁一起吃罢了。
 有时候肚子饿了,maggie加蛋就够我满足很久。
 不加蛋太寒酸,在学校试了几次受不了。
 算是我的小小原则吗?

关于金钱,
 有些人满身名牌样样讲究,
 有些人百万千万身家却还是愿意陪我去大减价拣便宜。
 我买不起LV但我不缺钱, 大幸!

关于自信,
 有人用金钱包装表现自己,
 有人和他们认为可满足他们虚荣心的人混在一起,
 有人满口八卦希望和别人能有更多的话题,
 我说的是我。
 但我想无论怎样,知识是可以建立信心的。
 看多点nat geo,去旅行呗!
 不然说话大大声却说错了是很糗的。

关于家庭,
 尚算健全。
 疼爱我的双亲,奇怪的兄弟。
 虽然争吵不断像永无宁日,但有时一起看电视我已经感受到幸福。
 纵使父母之间没有爱,我还是选择了相信表面的平静。

关于友情,
 即使一年没联络,但再见面时还是很熟络。
 我喜欢这种朋友。
 你们真好。

关于爱情,
 曾经以为自己是世界上最长情的人,其实我连初恋情人的样子都快忘了。。
 也曾经天真的以为只要两个人在一起,在深山种菜也愿意。最后终究被现实打败。是我太自以为忽略了她的感受。
 到现在我还是好舍不得。。

关于性向,
 有人以为我受了情伤所以变死lesbian,
 有人说我赚到,因为我是bi。
 但可否知道,真爱难寻也!
 而我现在执行着asexual reproduction,看到我的孩子别奇怪。


关于生活,
 越堕落就越快乐,是我一直信奉的。
 以悲伤为美,总爱把自己设定成世纪大悲剧的主角。
 自以为悲伤的表情会让自己更美丽动人。
 殊不知现实生活中我承受不起一点心痛。


有人以为自己很可怜,
有人以为自己很有钱,
有人以为自己很厉害,
有人在意别人的眼光,
有人心里很自卑,
有人为未来努力,

我在心里冷笑。
生不带来死不带去,让所有事情自生自灭好不好?
烦恼是何苦。
爱你想爱的人,恨你想恨的人,笑你想笑的事,看你想看的戏,唱你想唱的歌,去你想去的景,做你想做的梦,吃你想吃的屎,喝你想喝的尿。

我生活一塌糊涂一生没啥成就,
但我只想平凡的偷生。

因为我很窝囊我没有去死的勇气。

与此同时有人在不屑我。

Friday, April 3, 2009

Piggy---the prayer

May God bless Bunny
not to be harm,
not to be disappointed,
not to be sad..
May You bless her happy ever after..


...and i will treat You aisikilimu...